Wednesday, August 16, 2006

sigh. i live with a couple who are like darn blind la. i mean like hallo, earth to parents sort of thing.

so i came home, not too happy, some time spent among frens and doing wad i do best, talking crap and socializing kinda suppressed all the stress and frustration i had been feeling over the last few days la.

and its like i came home, someone claimed she didnt scold me, but the very fact she changed her tone and raised her voice already gave me that implication that i was getting scolded. and not that i wanted to get stuck in, but its my character, if i m already not very happy and u scold me for wad i consider trivial [like not having liquid in ur contacts container], its first nature that i ll snap back. i mean like, its wad everyone does.

its like after that i stormed off and i filled the stupid thing with liquid, den she appeared at the door and was like, even if ur having all these stuff in school, u dun need to bring it back home and throw it at us. den i was thinking, so u know i m stressed up, den why cant u sit me down and ask me wads wrong instead of scolding me like that. den my dad came up with some silly hypothesis, and he went like 'are u having girlfren problems again' which i tot was the most ridiculous and groundless statement of it all. and i tot again, no i do not but i think i can handle a girlfren better den u can handle me la. sheeeesh.

if council work and studies were considered girlfrens, there ll be no single people left in the world. its almost like u could never go a week with total peace in the entire house even if u tried. everything u ever tried to help with gets undermined, almost like its insignificant. i mean like its my responsibility in the first place but its not my fault i m not trained to do it, and for someone hu never actually helps out in the house, doing stuff like dishes and packing his own room is progress right, dunno why some people just cant see that. and den he says some nonsense like killing one person makes save nine insignificant, but is not putting liquid in ur contacts the equilavent of killing one person? pang sai. if it was, the police would be at my doorstep right now la.

sometimes i wish i could like stay in boarding school or something. i m sick of school. i m sick of home. and when i got into a relationship the other time, it became my fault. when i wanna spend more time in church, its also my fault. so wad isnt??

|cowpoo| 11:14 PM|

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